Growin' & GLOWIN'!

You know the saying...  "He may not come when you want him, but He's always right on time." Feels cliche sometimes, but I have experienced some "right on time" moments in my life. Like when I was buying a house and starting grad school simultaneously. Well, I've been pondering on His timing a little bit lately. See, I've been invisible most of life. Unseen, unnoticed, unrecognized, unappreciated. Let the record show that I've also been "great" all my life. I am an achiever and have many accomplishments under my name, and am very impressive on paper. I support my friends and am ALWAYS in the mood to celebrate. That's probably linked to trauma. You know, because I'm rarely celebrated, but that is not the point of this post. 😂 As I've been invisible for most of my life, it seems that lately, I'm less invisible. And I'm questioning it... Because I don't really know how to deal with the attention. Being transparent here....

I’ve shared with you how things went left, but now I have to tell you how they went right. Things really do work together for good for those who are called according to purpose (Romans 8:28).  The biggest lesson for me through all of this time was and is still Trust. During this time, there have also been lessons in Obedience, Self-Worth/Image and of course, Faith. I have no problem putting my faith in God, but do I trust, do I believe that He is going to do what He says? That's the real tea. Trust is first because there are so many layers to trust that have applied to my life in this time. I’ve had to trust that God really does have my best interest in mind, even when it didn’t appear to be true. I’ve had to trust (and still do) that God will do what He says He will, and that His words are in fact true, even when I have grounds to be skeptical. I’ve had to trust myself too. I’ve had to trust in my relationship with my Heavenly Father; trusting that it is real, that it is valid, an...

Getting back into it...  From the time that I purchased my house, I knew that once I moved out of it, I was gonna rent it out and then will it to my kids. I never intended to sell it. I kept asking God, "Sir, what are we gonna do about this?" and I wasn't hearing a single peep. Then, all of a sudden, He spoke! And I did not like what I heard one bit! So, like we do, I boxed that idea out of my head, because I wasn't doing that. And, like God does (at least with me He does), He challenged me. "Oh, you say you're not doing it?" Boom. The ceiling started leaking. Water was running down through the walls and into my kitchen. Ceiling damage, on both levels, and wall damage. Oh you know I'm looking at God like "oh word? That's how it is now?" It turns out that the HVAC system that I had replaced wasn't installed correctly and therefore it wasn't draining properly. Since I hadn't been using the AC due to fall and winter, as far as ...